I wanted to stop pretending - stop trying to fit myself into the shape that someone else needed me to be. I wanted to feel deserving of love right then, not later after I "fixed" myself. I was tired of feeling cherry picked - only sharing the 'good' parts. I wanted to be loved completely - for my whole self. This poem marks the moment in my life when I decided to start expecting more. I wish I had written it sooner, but mostly, I'm just glad I wrote it at all. Each day I continue further down the path of self-love and acceptance.