I remember how I felt scared and ashamed, like I was breaking some unwritten rule. I wasn't supposed to need anyone. Leaning on someone, allowing myself to find solace in another human being - that was weakness, awkward, unwanted, and wrong. Writing this poem was about facing those feelings of shame, and through this poem I began the process of re-writing my personal narrative. Sometimes, it's still scary to feel vulnerable and exposed in a friendship, but now I lean into the scary.